sophie.
pau.
lee.
thesartorialist.
paris[[easyfashion]].
wetseal.
threadless
FML.
|
|
the RANT.
i know, im supposed to be studying for Pinoy and Economics.
But, the SAT scores come out in like 15 minutes...so i can't really focus. Today is supposed to be my last day of studying, well for everyone else it is. Everyone gets to look forward to a great 10 days of aboslute and wonderfully blissful nothingness....too bad im not part of them :(
i've been so tired the past few days, no, make that weeks. I need a really good release. Like a long run or a trip to the beach...which! dad was offering to fund but i couldn't take him up on that offer cause of debate..or was it volley? well, one of those.
So whats the closest thing i have to that really good release?
EASY....a RANT. :P
WARNING: what you're about to read is the product of 2 months worth of stress, confusion, anger and all that other stuff. So, enter at your own risk...
1. Grades. WTF. its so sad how i jumped to 7th in the batch last quarter, only to go down to WHO KNOWS WHERE this quarter :( Its so depressing because throughout the entire quarter I felt so ehhh. I would stay up late as usual, do everything like i usually do, and come up with HORRIBLE grades. It was the only the end of the quarter where things got better, but of course, its a little late. The worst part of it all is that it really affects me cause colleges are still gonna see it considering I havent submitted my apps yet....CRAP.
2. College. SPEAKING OF. This entire process is really stressing me out and its so unbelievably tiring. Im afraid that cause of all my extracurriculars and other stuff I wont be able to finish everything. but hello??? this is my future! shouldnt i give it a lot of attention? or at least more than what im giving it now...cause my progress with the whole apps process is close to none.
3. SATs. After taking the SAT Is i jumped right into my US history book (yes, im taking US history...and Bio). But because of all the craziness thats been happening I stopped. So now, as exams draw to a close I find my self 8 days away from test date. having studied absolutely NOTHING. except, ONE chapter in ONE of my two US History books. Wow. the more I reflect and type, the more Im coming to terms with the sad realization that I may very well be screwing up my future :P
4. Debate. With regards to debate all I can think of is how Im such a sucky captain.Im horrible with remembering dates and reminders and all of these things. Not to mention, how tight my schedule is. Im sorry guys if i cant find the time to train with you guys (yes, and crosstrain too), im sorry I cant text you all the reminders all the time and all the other stuff Im supposed to do. :( i am ESPECIALLY sorry for IDEA 1. I should have been there for you guys. I knew this certain team needed me to be there specifically for support, but I ended up having TWO games instead of 1 so i really couldnt make it. im so sorry :( you guys have absolutely no idea, how bad i felt/feel about it. I should have been there for all of you.
5. Volleyball. See, heres the problem. When I do my job as captain of debate, I end up disappointing the volleyball team. :( Coach keeps reminding me of my responsibilites as Starting 6 and I know I haven't really been doing a good job in keeping up with those. Im sorry guys and coach for all the games i missed, all the trainings I came late for, all the balls I missed for staying up too late or not eating...im sorry for everything.
6. Cheerdancing. God knows how much I love cheerdancing. But as you can tell from above, my plate is already pretty full. For weeks ive been trying to figure out what i should do. To dance or not to dance? Ive asked so many people and they said I should, but its so much more complicated than that. Volleyball is Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Debate is Wed and Friday. Volley games are on Saturday and/or sunday. So are debate tournaments. So where would i fit dancing? See, the reasonable answer is NO WHERE. meaning, i shouldnt dance. But the thing is, I love it. And Ina already said that she would rather have me 'un-devoted' (meaning not staying the whole time for practice...which is EVERYDAY except SATURDAY) than not have me at all. So, what to do? ...
7. Friends and Family. CRAP. I love all of you soooo much! I would be this HUGE mess without you. Seriously, i would. Thank you for everything. Im SOOO sorry that im not able to hang out with you guys. Thank you for not dumping me yet :D please forgive my overscheduled ways...
Ok, just got my SAT scores.
And now, im in a happier mood.
not ecstatic. but happy.... :D
oh, and heres the game plan:
forget about 2nd quarter and MOVE ON
Put aside 2 hours each day to App Filling
spend entire sem break studying for SATs
being there for them from now on in debate
NEVER missing training or games
giving up lunch times to practice dances....yes, i will dance :D
thats all for now.
gotta go study!
happy sem break everyone! :D
|
|
|
the RANT.
i know, im supposed to be studying for Pinoy and Economics.
But, the SAT scores come out in like 15 minutes...so i can't really focus. Today is supposed to be my last day of studying, well for everyone else it is. Everyone gets to look forward to a great 10 days of aboslute and wonderfully blissful nothingness....too bad im not part of them :(
i've been so tired the past few days, no, make that weeks. I need a really good release. Like a long run or a trip to the beach...which! dad was offering to fund but i couldn't take him up on that offer cause of debate..or was it volley? well, one of those.
So whats the closest thing i have to that really good release?
EASY....a RANT. :P
WARNING: what you're about to read is the product of 2 months worth of stress, confusion, anger and all that other stuff. So, enter at your own risk...
1. Grades. WTF. its so sad how i jumped to 7th in the batch last quarter, only to go down to WHO KNOWS WHERE this quarter :( Its so depressing because throughout the entire quarter I felt so ehhh. I would stay up late as usual, do everything like i usually do, and come up with HORRIBLE grades. It was the only the end of the quarter where things got better, but of course, its a little late. The worst part of it all is that it really affects me cause colleges are still gonna see it considering I havent submitted my apps yet....CRAP.
2. College. SPEAKING OF. This entire process is really stressing me out and its so unbelievably tiring. Im afraid that cause of all my extracurriculars and other stuff I wont be able to finish everything. but hello??? this is my future! shouldnt i give it a lot of attention? or at least more than what im giving it now...cause my progress with the whole apps process is close to none.
3. SATs. After taking the SAT Is i jumped right into my US history book (yes, im taking US history...and Bio). But because of all the craziness thats been happening I stopped. So now, as exams draw to a close I find my self 8 days away from test date. having studied absolutely NOTHING. except, ONE chapter in ONE of my two US History books. Wow. the more I reflect and type, the more Im coming to terms with the sad realization that I may very well be screwing up my future :P
4. Debate. With regards to debate all I can think of is how Im such a sucky captain.Im horrible with remembering dates and reminders and all of these things. Not to mention, how tight my schedule is. Im sorry guys if i cant find the time to train with you guys (yes, and crosstrain too), im sorry I cant text you all the reminders all the time and all the other stuff Im supposed to do. :( i am ESPECIALLY sorry for IDEA 1. I should have been there for you guys. I knew this certain team needed me to be there specifically for support, but I ended up having TWO games instead of 1 so i really couldnt make it. im so sorry :( you guys have absolutely no idea, how bad i felt/feel about it. I should have been there for all of you.
5. Volleyball. See, heres the problem. When I do my job as captain of debate, I end up disappointing the volleyball team. :( Coach keeps reminding me of my responsibilites as Starting 6 and I know I haven't really been doing a good job in keeping up with those. Im sorry guys and coach for all the games i missed, all the trainings I came late for, all the balls I missed for staying up too late or not eating...im sorry for everything.
6. Cheerdancing. God knows how much I love cheerdancing. But as you can tell from above, my plate is already pretty full. For weeks ive been trying to figure out what i should do. To dance or not to dance? Ive asked so many people and they said I should, but its so much more complicated than that. Volleyball is Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Debate is Wed and Friday. Volley games are on Saturday and/or sunday. So are debate tournaments. So where would i fit dancing? See, the reasonable answer is NO WHERE. meaning, i shouldnt dance. But the thing is, I love it. And Ina already said that she would rather have me 'un-devoted' (meaning not staying the whole time for practice...which is EVERYDAY except SATURDAY) than not have me at all. So, what to do? ...
7. Friends and Family. CRAP. I love all of you soooo much! I would be this HUGE mess without you. Seriously, i would. Thank you for everything. Im SOOO sorry that im not able to hang out with you guys. Thank you for not dumping me yet :D please forgive my overscheduled ways...
Ok, just got my SAT scores.
And now, im in a happier mood.
not ecstatic. but happy.... :D
oh, and heres the game plan:
forget about 2nd quarter and MOVE ON
Put aside 2 hours each day to App Filling
spend entire sem break studying for SATs
being there for them from now on in debate
NEVER missing training or games
giving up lunch times to practice dances....yes, i will dance :D
thats all for now.
gotta go study!
happy sem break everyone! :D
|
|
tagboard.
|
archives.
By post:
the moments that are NASHDc 08
caught in the rain.
long time, no blog.
are you kidding me?
GOD. HELP. ME.
i am so sleepy. did not have a good night last nig...
simplicity.&&.audacity
no pain. no GAME.
just keep going...
dinner && the games
By month:
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
October 2008
May 2009
June 2009
|
affiliates.
Credits
Layout: Mary
Colours: refuted
Host: blogger
|
profile.
profile
Adopted Trees.
|